Man do I ever have questions!!! Not about the usual religious stuff. I'm not concerned or questioning things like heaven and hell, rapture...if and when, eternal life, security of the believer, gifts, or angels. But I do question our perception of conversion. I have come to understand that eternal life is instantaneous but conversion is a lifelong process.
Let me try an explain using me as the example. I know that I received and applied the price Jesus paid (His perfect shed blood) to cleanse me from all sin and unrighteousness. The moment I did that I was Born Again. My spirit which had laid dead from the transgression of Adam was brought to life by the life in Jesus's blood. But this converting or changing of the rest of me is tough. I say that because after 30 plus years of new life I am discovering simple truths that require change. These truths seem like things I should have already known.
The truth I am growing into is the truth of love. We as followers of Jesus say we love but do we really? This is the biggest question right now in my life. I am telling people I love them when I am not sufficiently loving my wife, according to scripture. What is scary to me is I don't know how to love by bible standards because It's never been really taught by those who taught me. Plus why ask when you think you already know? Also when the spirit of God would try and speak to me on the subject of love, I would simply over ride or over rule His input by my limited knowledge or the traditional views I had been taught.
But now I am at a crossroad. Loving unconditionally doesn't seem to be an option but the mandate. Unconditional love is something most of us only talk about. Until I can do it, I am going to try and refrain from speaking the biggest lie ever told by repeating the religious and social mantra..."I Love You".
Final question. Are we willing to give ourselves as Christ gave Himself for us, not only our personal brides but for all those who are even given invitation to be His bride? That would be that "who so ever will" group.
It's hard and I can't do it so I have determined I must unleash the God that lives in me who does not contain love He is love.
Forgive me for just talking about and not walking in love all these years, perhaps that's why He calls us His children. There you have it, it appears I learned to talk before I could walk.
No question...Jesus love me,
Babu Lonnie
